Love + Bunny = Love Bunny

I am not used to talk about (romantic) love maybe because we don’t talk about it at home or I have no one to talk to. I even have a hard time talking to my girl friend every time she is having a fight with her boy. And I hate it more to hear her dreaded question, “What should I do?” I haven’t had a boyfriend yet! I have no idea and if it’s not an excuse (because my sister is also a certified NBSB and she’s good at advising her girl friends) my reason would be I am not seriously thinking about it. Oh my! Having such a novice hand at this matter made me arrive at my (maybe) most stupid advice and that is to break with her boyfriend. Forgive me! I really have nothing good to tell her. I don’t have a good mouth to help her but I can have a good ear to listen to her dilemmas about their relationship. And good thing she hasn’t taken my advice! She’s with her boy for two years now! And I really super like their love team! They look so cute together and the guy is really sweet and kind and caring to my girl friend. He is the epitome and the personification of the concept “Boyfriend Material.” (just prove me if I am wrong)

I am a Certified NBSB by choice. For those who are really ignorant what NBSB means and unconsciously squinting their foreheads…it means No Boyfriend Since Birth. I love being it. Some even thought that I was a lesbian, which I am totally not. For all of my life, I (only) had two suitors. I thought they would just be illusions but they aren’t. They are real people. The first one only talks to me through text and I was not really entertaining him...I even avoid to talk to him because he’ll just say “I love you,” “I miss you,” and other sweet phrases over and over again. He always gives me a toothache! The second one was fine even if he was always having a fight with me, which I somehow love doing. Honestly speaking, I did not know he was already courting me. Tsk tsk… I really thought he was just being himself…sweet, caring and a gentleman (which I am quite dubious to say). I just learned (and realized) he courted me when he and his friend told me that I wasn’t appreciating his efforts. Tsk tsk…

I have put two Love Bunnies on my bed at the same time and the guys I have mentioned entered the scene at around that time. The time I have removed my Love Bunnies was also the time they exited. Now, I have put again a Love Bunny. I may say that it is working for me the second time around. Note: Love Bunnies, as the experts say, only work for Pisceans like me and what I have put on my bed are just stuffed toys you could buy at stores.

A message for *Ü*:
I think we’ll live a better and quieter life if we just keep it among the four us. And honestly speaking, I really cannot look straight to your eyes anymore. I am not yet used to it. I also think that you speak and act differently after that moment even if nothing significant really changed. And you know what. I feel I am becoming really demanding and bossy over you. Sorry for that… And one more thing! Forgive me about my mood swings…I just have really fast irrational reactions to varying stimuli in the environment. Don’t worry because I am trying to work on it. Ok?

Nagagalit ako

Madali akong makalimot kung sino ang may atraso sa akin. Pero iba talaga ‘to, ibang usapan kapag nagalit ako. Minsan ko lang naman i-claim na nagagalit ako. Pilit ko kasing iniintindi o kaya naiinis na lang ako. Hindi ko alam kung bakit sa kaibigan ko pa ako nakaramdam ng ganitong pagkayamot, pagkainis, pagkaasar, pagkamuhi, pagkagalit…

Tama. Nagalit nga ako. Hindi ako kuntentong sabihin na naiinis lang ako. Nagagalit ako. Hindi ko siya naintindihan. Ayaw ko siyang intindihin. Kahit gusto ko sa mga paliwanag hindi ngayon ang pagkakataon upang magpaliwanag siya. Ayaw kong tanggapin ang paliwanag niya. Not now…

NAGAGALIT AKO!!!

Nasaktan ako sa ginawa niya.

Ano nga ba kasi ang nangyari?
Nanghingi ako ng papel. Sinabi niya ibibigay niya sa akin pero hindi ko muna kinuha. Tapos may nanghingi ulit sa kanya tapos binigay niya sa iba yung papel na hiningi ko. Wala na. Wala nang papel. Sa harapan ko niya ibinigay yung papel na ‘yon.

Ang babaw ba? Hindi ko rin alam kung bakit ako nakaramdam ng ganoong galit. Hindi ko rin makalimutan yung pangyayari. Pakiramdam ko trinaydor ako. Ang lalim ng naramdaman ko pero ang babaw ng dahilan. Hindi pala mababaw. Simpleng pangako lang yun ng pagbigay ng papel sa akin. Naisip ko tuloy ang salitang priority. Priority. PRIORITY! Nauna ako. Binibigyan ko ng priority ang mga kaibigan ko. PRIORITY! Sana alam mo ang ibig sabihin ng salitang priority pati ang konsepto nito.

NAGAGALIT AKO!!!
Nasaktan din ako.

Fresh pa rin yung galit na nararamdaman ko sa tuwing naaalala ko yung nangyari. Masakit pa rin para sa akin kahit ilang buwan na ang nakalipas.
Hindi ko pa sinasabi na galit ako sa kanya. Ayoko lang. Kaya hanggang ngayon nagagalit pa rin ako.

*ang sama ko*
*pero naglalabas lang ako nang galit*
T_T