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Kahapon magka-usap kami ni Abo. Tapos nililista ko sa kanya yung mga pagkain na natutuwa ako kapag kinakain ko...

Ang mga gusto kong kinakain:
*Lumpia na gawa sa bahay: ground pork at ground carrots lang yung filling
*Fettucine Alfredo sa Pizza Hut (wala na akong ibang nabilan nito maliban sa Pizza Hut)
*Carbonara na gawa ko lang
*Tiramisu na sarili kong recipe ulit: manipis lang yung layer ng condensed milk at cream
*Spaghetti sa bahay namin
*Kanin: basta yung hindi dikit-dikit na kanin
*Suman ng Antipolo; tsaka carioca, puto, kasoy at mangga ng Zambales; pati yung triangle na kakanin na color dark brown ng Cainta
*Egg pie at buko pie
*Garlic bread, tsaka yung bread sa Le Coeur de France na di ko alam yung name, pandesal, pretzel sa Auntie Anne's na cinnamon flavor
*Tasty at Cheez Whiz tapos tinoast hanggang slightly sunog yung Cheez Whiz
*Purefoods Honeycured Bacon, hotdog/cheesedog, longganisa na binibili ni mommy sa officemate niya
*Pizza na yung toppings: cheese, pepperoni, bacon
*Hard boiled egg (yung white lang) na sinabawan ng pure calamansi juice, itlog na maalat (yung white lang ulit)
*Lucky Me Pancit Canton (yung green), Pancit Malabon
*Sausage dun sa binilihan namin na di ko alam ang pangalan
*Frozen Jelly Ace
*Buko meat, button mushroom
*Watermelon, kamatis, Fuji apple, Suha ng Davao...fruits na hindi masyadong maasim... Hehe
*Chicken isaw/BBQ
*Hershey's Chocolate (yung sundae din), Chocnut, Kream stix, Stick-O, Cloud-9
*Ice cream: Brownie Fudge Ala Mode Ü
*Pusit, hipon
*Coleslaw
...ang dami na... Nakakagutom... Ü

Drinks:
*Tubig...ice cold
*Orange Juice: Zest-O
*Chocolate drink: Milo (kapag ako magtitimpla) o kaya Chuckie kapag ready-to-drink
*Green Mango Shake (asim)
*Watermelon Shake
*Banana Shake

Buhay Summer (na maulan)

Walang masyadong nangyayari sa buhay ko ngayong summer. Paggising ko sa umaga, kakain lang ako tapos magco-computer. Lunch tapos computer pa rin. Dinner tapos computer pa rin ulit. [Note: Naliligo pa naman ako tsaka nagtu-toothbrush] Close na close na nga kami ng computer namin dahil magkapiling kami halos buong araw. Daig ko pa ang nag-oopisina na eight hours lang magbababad sa harap ng computer. Kasi ako...mga 10 hours ang inaabot ko kapag medyo tinatamad pa ako.

Wala na akong social life. Hindi ko na nga nakakausap ang friends ko at matagal ko na rin silang hindi nakikita. Buong araw man akong online sa YM wala naman akong ka-chat. Boring ang buhay ko. Isang malaking routine. May pailang-ilang pagbabago nga lang.

1. Tinuruan ako ng former classmate ko, who is working at PSE, nang...hindi ko sure kung ano yung tinuro niya sa akin basta may natutunan naman ako.
2. Pinabibili ako sa tindahan ni Aling OP nang Chikito, Boy Bawang, Lumpia (yung junkfood), Happy, Cloud9 tsaka kung ano pang maisipan.
3. Paminsan-minsang pagsagot sa mga tawag dito sa bahay.
4. Paminsan-minsang pagbasa sa text messages sa akin (na normally galing Globe).
5. ... ... Wala na akong maisip...

Hindi naman kasi ako gala kaya hindi ako lumalabas ng bahay. Wala naman akong OJT ngayon, part-time job o summer job. Napaka-useless ng existence ko ngayon. Dadalaw naman ako sa Manila uulan-ulan pa...na kapag bumaha daig pa ang Black Sea. Ayaw ko pa naman sa Manila kapag bumabaha. Dati kasi habang nasa baby seat (yung pambatang upuan sa tric) ako, nag-waves yung baha at nabasa ang pwet ko. Tapos nung pauwi na ako, nag-fx ako kahit amoy imburnal ako.

Gusto ko sanang gumala. Actually, gusto kong pumunta sa Intramuros at maglakad-lakad doon. Gusto kong mahawakan ang Intramuros (literally). Gusto kong pumunta sa museum. Hay. Kaso hindi ko magawa.

Mga hindi ko masabi pero gusto kong sabihin

May ilang bagay na lagi kong iniisip na sabihin pero hindi ko masabi.

Mga matagal ko nang gustong sabihin:

*Kung may gusto kang malaman, edi ako ang tanungin mo.
*Kailan ka matututo? Hindi talaga kita kayang turuan.
*Suko ako sa'yo. Nakakapagod ka na.
*Sawa na ako dyan. Next topic!
*Ang yabang mo. Kung gagawa ka ng kwento, yung medyo realistic naman.
*Maniwala ako sa'yo?!
*Daydreamer. San mo nakuha yang idea na yan?
*Feeling mo na naman ikaw yun.
*I have my own life.
*Bakit ganyan ka makahawak? Let go of me.
*Bakit kailangan sabihin sa'yo lahat ng kailangan mong gawin?
*Hindi uubra yang ginagawa mo forever.
*Bakit ako ganito sa'yo?
*Bakit ka ganyan?
*Natatakot ako sa ginagawa mo.
*Wala kang mahahanap na tulad ko. [wahehehe]
*Nanghihinayang at nalulungkot pa rin ako.
*I hate you.

*etc...marami pa, eh. Ayan muna. Hehe! Masyadong nag-o-overflow yung emotions at baka kung ano pa masabi ko. Ü

*lalala*

Such a big platter but just a little dish…not enough to satiate my appetite. Is it a joke? It isn’t funny. You make yourself pitiful.

I’m done. If I can’t teach you or if you just can't learn anything then I think you should find some better person. I thought I can make you realize something but I was wrong. Maybe I was too easy for you. But if you ever think that you need me again then I might reconsider but you don’t have anything as an assurance.

I’m tired. Can you just stop? Why do you always think I’m involved or must be involved? Why do you always have to ask me? It makes me sick. I’m having too much of it and it doesn’t give me anything good.

Enough. Some things are good to some degree but beyond that is too much. Can we talk about it some other time? I think I’m having too much of it. I want a break. It’s kind of boring sometimes but I know it interests you.

You are funny. Don’t act like a kid because you are not.

I’m not waiting.

I’m glad you’re there and I’m way gladder I’m here. Ü Haha!

“If you understand what you are doing then you are not learning anything.”

Personality Quiz: The Result

Your view on yourself:
Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are not looking merely for a girl/boyfriend - you are looking for your life partner. Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with. The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education:
You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:
You have many goals and want to achieve as much as you can. The jobs you enjoy are those that let you burn off your considerable excess energy.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

***
It was quite accurate. It shocked me.
***

Took the quiz at: http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

Perplexed. Puzzled. Confused.

Mahirap makipag-argue sa sarili dahil isa lang ang viewpoint mo.

Mahirap tanungin ang sarili lalo na kapag hindi mo rin alam ang sagot.

Mahirap umintindi mag-isa kapag wala kang alam at wala kang malaman.

Di ba?

***

Bakit ganun? Bakit ganito? So unexpected. So untimely.

***

Salamat sa counter ko...

Things to do

Things to do:
* Hindi ko na siya papakialaman
* Magiging normal na lang ulit ako
* Kung ano siya sa akin, ganon din siya
* Do everything slowly
* Bawal mang-bigla
* Explain
* Apologize
* Say thanks
* Fix what has been broken
* Be a friend
* See what’s going to happen

One question is puzzling me for the longest time. “Am I right? That it is me so far.”

Hindi ko kayang gawin lahat yan. Pero alam kong, may dapat akong gawin.

***

I hope better things start here.

I think I have spelled Life a little bit wrong this time.

Black and White

Ang tingin ko naman unintentional naman yung mga nagawa mo. Ok na nga sa akin yung mga yun. Ok? Huwag ka na lang makulit. Ü Hehe. Kung hindi mo na alam kung paano ako kausapin... Toink... Alam mo kaya. Kung pano lang dati edi ganun pa rin. Pero...kahit pano nga may nag-iba pa rin. Ayun. Mabait ka naman talaga eh. Abnormal lang talaga ako mag-isip minsan. Nasa akin lang talaga ang problema minsan. Ayun. Huwag mo nang isipin yung mga bagay na yun. Kalimutan na natin. Basta ang importante yung ngayon at kung anong meron bukas. Oh! Ang drama nun. Ü Basta ayaw ko lang maging ibang tao ka.

Salamat nga pala at pinagpa-pasensyahan mo ang tantrums ko at occasional mood swings ko. Sorry rin at ikaw ang laging biktima. Ü Ang bait mo kasi kaya ang sarap mong awayin. Hehe. Ü Parang ang maldita ko tuloy. Haha!

***

I really want you to feel better about it and I think I'm sucking at it.

Ang baduy ko... Kadiri. Haha! Ü

This is how I feel...

Hurt / Naiinis…
* Nung sinabi mo sa akin mo iku-kwento yung “latak” (ito yung term mo) ng gusto mong i-kwento. Sana naman better term ang ginamit mo. Na-feel ko lang na I don’t belong in your life.
* Iniiwan mo kami kapag tumatawid… Hello?! Gusto ko lang malaman kung kasama mo ba kami.
* Tinalikuran mo ako nung may sasabihin pa ako sa’yo.
* Mag-oopen up na sa’yo kung bakit ako naiinis tapos parang wala ka namang pakialam. Sinasabi mo pang ‘wag na lang kasi nga hindi nga ako nagsasabi… Er! Sasabihin na nga, eh. You made me feel disregarded.
* Sa hostile mong pakikipag-usap sa akin. Pinaramdam mong walang kwenta yung sasabihin ko.
* Nakakalimutan mo ako kapag may ibang tao na. Sometimes you make me feel left out.
* Wala kang effort. Kahit sabihin mong friends lang tayo, mag-effort ka naman as a friend. Walang initiative.
* Tinulugan mo ako sa phone… Tinatawanan ko lang yun pero na-hurt ako talaga dun. Napahiya ako, alam mo ba yun?
* Tinawanan mo ako nung akala ko about us yung sinasabi mo pero hindi pala… Ang lakas pa ng tawa mo nun, ah. Napahiya mo ako.
* May tinanong ako pero hindi mo ako sinagot… To think na magka-usap tayo seconds before nun.

Isa pa… Sana you mean what you say. Hindi ko alam kung kailan ako maniniwala dahil iba yung ginagawa mo sa sinasabi mo.

Sometimes… I hate how you make me feel…you make me feel bad…

Ayaw kong magaya tayo sa nangyari sa amin. Hindi ako madaling mag-open up lalo na kapag feelings ang involved. Takot? Nahihiya? Hindi ko alam kung ano basta mahirap lang. Kaya sana malaman mo na effort talaga sa akin ang magsabi kung bakit at kung ano.

With and Without a Toilet

With and Without a Toilet

There are things that you know but will still shock you…just like the first time…

I was walking on an unpopular but populous street in Manila when this kid sprouted from the ground. She was trying to pull up her pants and walked as if nothing happened. I wouldn’t be in a shock if she was just fixing her pants’ fit. Then… I looked down and saw her pee on the floor which is roughly three feet away from 7/11’s door, few inches away from me and all of the people passing by. Did she pee on the sidewalk? I was shocked because she did.

It wasn’t my first time to see such sight. It wasn’t my second also. It was the nth time…too many to count.

An earlier sighting happened in Recto. My friends and I were walking there, the part near Recto station, UE’s side (just described if ever you know it), when suddenly an old lady pushed down her pants and sat down beside the sidewalk. My friends and I just smiled at each other wondering what she’s going to do…pee or poo. Even if you don’t see such scene you would still suspect that the street is a big open public toilet because it smells like stale urine

One of the most unforgettable toilet things is the literally public toilet. It isn’t public as public…but public enough to be seen by everyone. The feeling was quite…terrifying. There is no room, only two walls where the first one is behind you (I think it’s a house’s wall) and the second one is as high as the toilet bowl which is useless. In front of you is the 2’x3’ window to a living room and around you is…everyone. I didn’t pee there even if I think my gallbladder was going to burst.

It’s not just pee, there’s also some poo.

This just happened earlier this day. I was in school then. I went to our comfort room, which normally smells rancid, and checked the cubicles…I entered the one with the continuous flush, it’s not technology…it’s just broken. I just ignored the scent of the fresh poo and just continued with my thing. It really stinked and the smell sticked to my nose. But I can’t see any trace on the bowl. The bowl was clean but the floor wasn’t. The poo was on the floor. Was it really the poo I have been searching for? It was… I can’t believe myself that I was seeing a poo on the floor and what is more unbelievable is that the poo is behind the bowl, it even looked liked virgin from any human intervention. I do not know why I panicked…maybe because of the fact that I saw a poo behind the bowl. I think the smell gets worse when you see the real thing.

February

February na. Hindi man lang ako nakapag-blog ng January dahil hanggang ngayon sira pa rin yung monitor namin.

May ibang feel talaga kapag February. Hindi ko maintindihan. Tulad nang Pasko na maraming ilaw sa daan, kapag February parang may imaginary hearts akong nakikita na lumilipad. Nandyan na naman ang flowers and chocolates...flowers ba? Nung grade 5 pa ako huling naka-receive at friend ko pa ang nagbigay.

Lagi naman akong may ka-date kapag February 14...lagi kong ka-date ang sarili ko. Lagi akong mag-isang umuuwi na lagi naman akong mukhang haggard tapos karamihan ng makikita ko eh may hang over pa ng kilig moments nung binigyan sila ng kung ano ng kung sino. Ay ewan. Hindi naman ako bitter dahil sa isang normal na araw lang sa akin ang Feb 14. Nothing special maliban sa birthday yun ni Jeff.

Hay ewan. Bakit ba tuwing February kailangan kong mag-blog ng ganito? Para tuloy akong bitter. Hehehe...

PS (para kay Vhe)
Di bale nang isa lang ang character sa love life mo. Ano nga naman? Kung masaya ka naman... Ayun.

...may nagbago ba sa mga sinabi ko sa tinext ko sa'yo? Hehehe.

...tulad ng mga nakaraang taon...hanggang ngayon single pa rin ako. So what? Hahaha! Ü

...basta hindi ako bitter...parang lang. Hahaha...

Breaking, Telling, Living, Anything

Internet

Nakasira ulit ako ng gamit. Nasira ko yung computer monitor namin, binago ko kasi yung resolution at, ayun, ayaw na niyang bumukas. Nakasira na rin ako ng monitor sa isang comp shop nung binago ko rin yung resolution, kinabahan ako nun. Ayun. Hindi tuloy ako makapag-Internet. At isa pang nasira. Yung phone namin na isa sa mga natitirang connection ko sa outside world. Di bale, nandyan pa naman ang tv eh.

Bows and Arrows

Hindi ko alam kung mali na sinabi ko yun o mali talaga yung sinabi ko. Iba kasi yung sitwasyon namin(?) Hindi ko alam. May hindi ako nalalaman. Naguguluhan ako. Siguro dapat ginawa ko na lang yun sa ibang paraan. Ano kayang naramdaman niya? Iniisip ko kung anong naging reaksyon ng mukha niya.

Feelings

Minsan kahit simple things lang yung gawin sa'yo, malaking impact na. O minsan kababawan lang talaga. Ü

"Ako n'ang magdadala."

Hehehe! Pati yung kinumusta ako...hindi ko kasi inaasahan yun eh. Naghihintay lang ako ng text nun at natuwa naman ako sa nabasa ko. Nagulat lang din ako kasi siya yung unang nagtext, normally ako yung nauuna.

Serious

May mga pagkakataong gusto mong seryosohin ko at meron ding mga pagkakataon na gusto mo binibiro ka lang talaga. Ganyan. Ayan nga. Para kasi siyang seryoso pero pilit kong sinasabi sa sarili ko na binibiro lang niya ako. At ayun, kinausap niya ako at sabi niya "Joke lang." Hay... I'm relieved.

Books

Kailangan ko nang mag-seryoso sa buhay ko. Aral mode. Ayun. Busy-busyhan.

Pasko

Yes... Malapit na ang Pasko... Ang panahon ng panandaliang pagyaman, ng paggastos, ng pagtaba, ng biglang pagbait at kung anu-ano pa. Ito rin yung panahon na todo decorate ang mga tao, todo sale at todo sa lights ang mga lugar. Hindi ko alam kung bakit biglang nagmo-morph ang mga tao at ang mga lugar tuwing Pasko. Kung bakit nagbabati bigla ang mga magkaka-away. Hay. Buti na lang may Pasko at may pwede tayong idahilan. Excited na ako sa Pasko, dahil tuwing Pasko...mas positive ang mga bagay-bagay... Iba talaga ang Pasko. Iba pa rin ang Pasko.

Student

Kanina… Nakita ko si Mrs. Marilyn Carson na teacher namin sa Chemistry nung third year. Parang telenovela yung nangyari. Huminto ako sa gitna na corridor sa SM Manila, tinitigan ko siya, hinawakan ko ang kasama ko sa braso, wala akong makita kundi si Mrs. Carson lang… Siya nga… Biglang nag-flash sa utak ko ang pagiging estudyante.

Fifteen years na akong estudyante. College student. Minsan naging high school, anim na taon sa grade school, dumaan sa pre-school at nalilito pa rin kung alin sa kinder at nursery ang nauna. Tipikal akong estudyante…tipikal na tamad na estudyante. Yung tipo na laging new year’s resolution ang “Mag-aaral na akong mabuti.” Natatandaan ko pa ang mga panahon na kinakaladkad ako ng tita ko papuntang banyo para maligo na ako. Natatandaan ko rin ang mga paulit-ulit na tanong sa akin ni mommy na, “Papasok ka ba?” sa bawat umagang tinatamad ako. Hindi naman ako yung hardcore na tamad, may pangarap ako sa buhay…at minsan natuwa akong tingnan na lang ang pangarap ko at mag-daydream na para bang totoo ang lahat.

Hindi ako yung tipo nang batang bibo na sinasakal ang sarili sa dami nang medals. May medals ako pero wala akong medal para sa “Best in Science,” ‘Best in Math” at “Best in English.” May nakuha naman akong “Best in Writing” medal nung pre-school ako. Nung high school naman tatlo ang nakuha ko. Yung isa dahil nag-second place kami sa quiz bee, yung isa naman dahil perfect attendance ako sa buong high school life ko at ang pangatlo ay Duty Award sa CAT (dahil din yan sa perfect attendance ako sa CAT).

Hindi ako nag-graduate with flying colors. Hindi ko man lang nakuha yung Special Citation na gusto ko nung graduation dahil hindi umabot sa 93 ang average ko. Mula sa pinakamataas na naabot ko na top 14 sa buong batch namin, bumagsak ang standing ko sa top 30+. Hindi ko rin nakuha yung isa pang award sa CAT na binibigay lang sa officers na may mataas na grade sa CAT.

Tulad nang ibang estudyante natutulog din ako sa klase. Mahirap makalimutan ang teacher namin na si Ms. Juvi na nagtuturo ng Calculus kasi tinulugan ko ang klase niya. Hindi yung tipong nakatulala o pumikit lang…define natulog…ayun ang ginawa ko sa subject niya. Paggising ko dini-dismiss na niya ang klase namin. Pero isa sa mga bagay kung bakit lagi kong kinu-kwento ito dahil nagpaalam ako sa kanya na tutulugan ko ang klase niya.

Hay… Student life…

The sem that was

Third year, 1st sem AY 2008-2009

Tapos na. Dati iniisip ko lang kung pano yun magtatapos at ngayon tapos na nga at magsisimula na naman ang bagong sem. Akala ko matagal ang magiging proseso ng pagtatapos nito pero nagkamali pala ako. Isang iglap natapos ang lahat.

July 11-12, 2008
Vera's birthday celebration...debut niya

Kain muna bago swimming.
Midnight swimming galore Bosay Resort sa Antipolo.

July 14
Accountancy Week and late na birthday celebration ni Alvin

Yellow and white

Pancit canton at liempo

August 27 (?)
Pa-swimming 'to ni Sir Baguino

@ Antipolo church
Sa may entrance
@ the resort...sa may CR

August 30
Maagang celebration ng debut ni Luisa

Eighteen wishes
Stolen shot
Us

Mga late September or early October (Sunday)
Mendiola
Nagtatanggal ng stress

Si Chox ang nag-picture

Pose pose sa McDo
Gawa namin ni Virge *kokak* @ SM City Manila

Picture moments

Hindi ko alam kung kailan 'to
Sa Jollibee

***

Masaya ang naging sem namin lalo na kapag may kasama kang mga masasayang tao. Bago lang kami sa section na pinag-enrol-an namin pero naging ok naman kami...sa iba. Hehe.

Gusto ko na rin mawala, o kung hindi man ay mabawasan man lang, ang frustrations ko. Iiwan ko na silang lahat sa sem na nakalipas. I'll start anew. Masmatindi na ang pressure this coming sem. Hay!

Salamat sa lahat ng taong naging parte ng kwento ko nitong nakaraang sem. Kung wala kayo, wala akong aalalahanin at babalik-balikang memories, be it good or not.

Flirt

I have been asked by Virge (pronounced as “verge”) on what a “flirt” is. I like to be surprised by his query but I wasn’t. He also told me that Julie said that it’s not intentionally coined to be used derogatorily to girls and people should describe a girl (or perhaps a guy too) as “super sweet” rather than calling her (or him) a flirt.

Honestly, I do not know how to clearly define the idea of being a “flirt.” Well, let me squeeze some inventive juice from my brain.

Flirting: It is a state where you aggressively manifest a physical or emotional attraction towards another person to attract him/her. It could also be a state of being misunderstood, i.e. when others put malice into your actions.

Am I having the idea? Or my efforts are futile in describing what it is?

Been very busy this month.

*sigh*

What's Cooking

What’s Cooking

I set boundaries

You can be close but not too much because it makes me feel uncomfortable. I have my own boundaries, I set them. I demand you respect my boundaries, my private bubble. You are scaring me away and I am ready to flee anytime.

I am not for free

I do not give myself for free and I am not even for sale. You would, and you have to, realize that.

Importance

You almost told me I am not important. You are almost already denying me. We agreed upon it but still I feel so disregarded. If you keep on doing what you always do then you would just make people feel unimportant.

Vague

What is happening? You suddenly acted weird. I cannot understand you. I am not a mind-reader. You have to get your point through so I can know why you are acting like that. Explaining to me isn’t very hard. I will listen to you without interrupting you.

Hidden motives

What is your motive for asking that? I do not want to think badly of you but it is the sole reason that I could logically come up with. I suppose you are not afraid to lose what you do not have… just do not do that again in front of me.

Squeal

Do not be angry if I squeal. You cannot blame me. You have a backup and I don’t. I am alone in this whole thing. I am bursting. I am helpless. I was wrong when I thought that I could endure all of this.

***

Thoughts pondered upon:
= Conflict is essentially good.
= You cannot be afraid to lose what you do not have.
= Get your point through.
= Beware of the limits.
= You are as mean as I am.
= Weak…

Smiles go miles

I entered the room.
I was haggard.
I haven’t combed my unruly hair.
I was perspiring.
I haven’t slept enough.
I was everything not nice to look at when you want to have a fresh scene.
Someone talked to me and asked me something.
Suddenly, I glanced at you.
You were smiling.
We were looking at each other.
I cannot remember if I smiled back at you and I wish I did.
I think I stopped talking that very exact moment.
I think my mouth was agape.
I cannot remember anything but you and your smile.
Everything seemed to be in sweet slow motion.
It felt good. I felt better.
It simply touched me.
So beautiful, so unique.
It is one of the sweetest smiles I have ever seen.
SMILE!
Ü

Random

Escape
Sometimes I want to escape but reality keeps on pulling me back. I want to run away but I cannot because reality will just haunt me. There is no real escape in this world except for two things: death and insanity.

Personality
I missed a lot about someone. I think I really have not known him personally. *sigh* It is just saddening that everything that happened seemed derelict to us. Well, I do not want to get into his business again. He has his life better without me and vice versa.

Immature. Maturing. Matured.
What are the signs of maturity? I asked my sister and she said, "A matured person does not have dreams but goals." Is it so? *think* I just became more conscious and curious about this when there was this person who constantly nags me about being matured. He said I was so immature for the bigger things in life... I think not.

Computer Literacy
I think there are a plethora of people who are computer illiterate in the Philippines. And I think what I think is already a fact. I went to a computer shop. I was the first and the only customer when these two girls came. I was not really into their business until I noticed that they do not know what they should do. Ok. I amiably assisted them since I was just staring at the computer.

SQE Passed
I passed the Special Qualifying Exam (SQE). Ok! I am officially a third year BS Accountancy student. YEHEY YEHEY!

Let’s talk about failures

Let’s talk about failures.

There is no man in this Earth who has never failed. Prove me wrong and you are on your way to another failure.

The bitter truth about life is we are going to fail in one way or another. The bittersweet reality is that every failure is not that bad after all if you learn how to learn. You may hate failing but do not be afraid of another failure even if it is hard. The greatest people on Earth suffered and surpassed the greatest failures in Life. *the following is adapted from Chicken Soup for the Soul*

Consider this…
After Fred Astaire’s first screen test the memo from the testing director of MGM, dated 1933, said, “Can’t act! Slightly bald! Can dance a little!” Astaire kept that memo over the fireplace in his Beverly Hills home.

Beethoven handled the violin awkwardly and preferred playing his own compositions instead of improving his technique. His teacher called him hopeless as a composer.

Charles Darwin, father of the Theory of Evolution, gave up a medical career and was told by his father, “You care for nothing but shooting, dogs and rat catching.” In his autobiography, Darwin wrote, “I was considered by all my masters and by my father a very ordinary boy, rather below the common standard in intellect.”

Walt Disney was fired by a newspaper editor for lack of ideas. Walt Disney also went bankrupt several times before he built Disneyland.

Thomas Edison’s teachers said he was too stupid to learn anything.

Albert Einstein did not speak until he was four years old and didn’t read until he was seven. His teacher described him as “mentally slow, unsociable and adrift forever in his foolish dreams.” He was expelled and was refused admittance to the Zurich Polytechnic School.

Henry Ford failed and went broke five times before he finally succeeded.

Babe Ruth, considered by sports historians to be the greatest athlete of all time and famous for setting the home run record, also holds the record for strikeouts. [1330 strikeouts, 714 homeruns]

Eighteen publishers turned down Richard Bach’s ten-thousand-word story about a “soaring” seagull, Jonathan Livingston Seagull, before Macmillan finally published it in 1970. By 1975 it had sold more than 7 million copies in the U.S. alone.

Richard Hooker worked for seven years on his humorous war novel, M*A*S*H, only to have it rejected by twenty-one publishers before Morrow decided to publish it. It became a runaway bestseller, spawning a blockbuster movie and a highly successful television series.
*some parts omitted

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I know failing is nothing gracious. I know how shameful it feels sometimes. *sigh* I am on the borderline between success and failure. And I believe that success will pull me to its side…I will always believe.